nurraisah

i know your tweets are refering to me.
I just don't know what to say.
Somehow you text me at the wrong timing.
and thus you're blaming me.
Oh fuck.

Hey LiVEJOURNAL,

it's been ages since i last update you. Hmm.. about 2 months? yeahh... But now i have a purpose of visiting you eljay, which is to convey a message which i don't think i'm able to convey verbally. heheh!

Dear you,

I may not dare to say this in front of you but i just want you to know that i like you for who you are. Not romantic? Who cares! But you're the sweetest ever. Still remember the day when you parked your bike at my place, walked all alone to have supper with me? & not forgetting we walked together from Jurong East to Bukit Batok. I still remember that. Altho you live at one end & me on the other end but still you did all this.

I don't know what she did to you but i really meant what i said, "maybe she doesn't deserve you more than i do.." I hope my confidence tak selalu salah eh! :P Being alone for 7 years really taught me something. Being a listening ear to my friend's relationship problem is really an eye opener for me. Sometimes, i will tell myself that, "i hope it won't happen to me.." but what's happening thereafter is not my ketentuan right?

I may not be your ideal type of girl with flawless skin, perfect teeth, look good, dress well but i am who i am. A girl with big dreams, a smile and the existance of her friends which keeps her going for the past 7 years.

For now, i thank you for giving me the opportunity to prove to you that i ain't the "photocopy" of the previous one.

with love,

Someone whom used to be a total stranger to me, now seems to be someone whom i appreciate much. We're good friends, close friends, best friends but no strings attached (maybe YET, heh). I admit i do always "bug" him as in text him all the time. I'm sorry sexy ass! I'll try to cut down on bugging you. hehe.

Someday if God willing, miracles will happen to me. :)

Dear Eljay,

I know i've abandoned you for quite long already. So here am i posting something to keep it alive! :D 1 month of OJT gonna end soon. Soon, it's gonna be my turn to manage all those clearance all by myself w/o any eyes watching me. I've been having fun during the attachment at Arrival side especially when my mentors are Shafiq, Huda and Azhar. They are a greaat bunch of mentors! Especially the night shift. hoho! Too bad i'm in departure strength. Meeting the "unlikeable" people there. pfft. But i should be thankful cos there's khairul and soon Zulkhairi gonna join me! :D I'm gonna miss the Arrival people!

Enough of work & back to social life...

Every off day of mine seems so precious. In fact i don't feel it as my off day. That's how shift work is like & i'm getting the hang of it. So e-yup.. Tuas is my 2nd home. :) Meeting my other friends seems so difficult. Clashes here and there. Whaat to do? Hmm... Don't be shocked if i'm declaring myself as having curfew NOW. Unstable Situation. At this point of time, i just feel that 20 isn't the right age to start a career/ full-time job.

So yeahh.. that's about it. Don't expect much from here cos seriously, i've nothing much to update about. Good Day!

Time flies so fast now. 4 days left to spend time together as one batch before we all gonna go separate ways. Altho 2 of them gonna be in the same team as me, but the more of them, the better. I love them. They have this mindset of, "One For All, All For One." But too bad laa kan, my camera is not here with me to capture the memories anymore. Not even for my upcoming birthday. pfft.

Why must I be the one chasing after you when it's supposed to be the other way round? Oh Boy, you just ruined it.